19 January 2014
Today, I am so scared. I wanted to express this on Twitter or Tumblr or Facebook or my other Tumblr but none of that seemed to make sense. I am genuinely, with every beat of my heart right now, feeling so, very scared right now. It's several days after the new year started and I feel like I'm about to start my life over right now. I'm scared because I don't know what to do now. And I'm scared to take my A Levels again. I'm scared. I'm scared that it's already more than halfway through the first month and I haven't started studying. I'm scared that without television and without videos on Youtube, I'd have to face reality and that makes me so scared. Growing up. It's what I need to do and this, this right now, moving on right now, it makes me so scared. I don't know what to do and that scares me. I'm scared.
7:53 PM
