07 February 2009
i've just realized something.
i like to believe that things will get better.
but i also like to believe that things will
not get better.
know how that works?
well, i hope for the best when it's something i like.
but the contrary for things i don't.
so as much as
you screw me over.
i'll still find a reason or way to make it go away.
and now i am mad at
you.
you slapped me right in the face.
and you didn't even have to say anything to do that.
it's unbelievable.
yet it's utterly clear now.
i
know think it'll never be possible.
but you know how ignorant and foolish i can be.
stupid me.
always believing you'll be who i want you to be.
URGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
(
not an orgasm)
damnit.
11:10 PM
