08 February 2009
i really need to find something better to do.
turning to blogger to let out my emotions isn't very healthy.
yeah at least i'm not keeping it all in.
but writing to myself doesn't really discount the fact that no one's actually listening.
no one can comfort me but myself.
like that's any good.
i need to sing a sad song.
i need to cry.
i need to tear pieces of paper up and throw them into someone's face.
i need to give someone the cold shoulder.
i need to cry like crazy like j. love hewitt.
i need someone to lean on.
i need life.
i need to get a hold of myself.
i need someone to care.
i'm needy.
i feel this weight in my chest.
an uncomfortable feeling.
one that i detest but love to feel.
a familiar emotion.
it's starting to sound like before.
stop me before i go any further.
i need to be strong.
i need to keep moving.
i need to do what i need to do.
wait i forgot.
how could i forget.
god.
i have god with me.
ah, thank god.
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