29 February 2008
imposter back off.i mean it.fyi youve misinterpreted all the things ive said.coz they dont really have anything to do with what you think it's about.anyway. ccts are finally (and thankfully) OVER.
ive been so tired lately. as you already know.
i was supposed to be free tomorrow and go to my relative's birthday celebration.
my first day of
REST.
but then again.
i have to go for floorball.
im still a little doubtful about how much i want to join.
honestly (with no offence intended).
im not the kind of person who is sports-driven or wtv you call it.
i have my cca and yes, i can deal with that.
but having an
extra thing all together...
its just not for me.
ive never been the type of person who takes on so many commitments.
and i wish, and i truly and hopefully do wish, that i dont have to go for it.
like i already said, i want to rest.
so
at least give me my saturday.
i can do a lot in one
FREE day.
and i dont think committing to the floorball thing would make my life any easier or make me any happier because its another heavy load on my shoulders.
i know im not
always busy.
but i think of myself and i know i will always need the extra time.
be it for rest, play or work.
i also know, that others can do it, so why not me.
but face it. i dont want to.
so i truly hope that when i break the news to whoever.
the person would be able to understand where im coming from and wont persuade me to still give it a try.
coz
i dont want to.
i really dont.
10:19 PM
23 February 2008
im tired.
this week, last week and obviously next week.
and this may sound shallow but i want time for myself.
i cant teach(or whatever you want me to do), i cant train as much now.
i need time!
to study for my exams, finish up my projects but most importantly i want to REST.
so yeah. let me get through next week then you people let me do some thinking first.
then i'll have my decisions.
i didnt know sports and studies would come down this hard on me.
anw ri won northlight 17-3 yesterday.
yes, i let in 3 goals.
2 of which were really not supposed to go in.
coz i didnt close my legs.
and that's... what?
one of the most basic rules of floorball goalkeeping?
yea.
today i was thinking of finishing my geog hwk then study for maths.
and finish up 'the joy luck club' for english next week.
i need to study for science and history too.
and that means more of my time.
that's just very very very stressful.
i'll be working under pressure so please dont push it.
thank you.
12:28 PM
14 February 2008
im trying to hear myself as i am.
coz i think i might have been trying to avoid things.
but i think that keeping things the same is just..
im not sure. emotions, emotions.
i wont say much coz i dont need the drastic now.
theres a hell lot of things i need to do.
so as for now..
the verdict remains unbeknownst to me.
oh and for what is worth.
friendly conversations dont really mean much.
and can somebody please give me some love and consideration.
8:46 PM
10 February 2008
people are confusing.
words are confusing.
things people do with words are confusing.
also.
reading signs are difficult.
the non-physical type i mean.
sometimes its super irritating when the meaning doesnt occur to you.
especially when you want something bad.
really, really bad.
pfft.
lol. well yeah. the past 4 days have been quite good i guess.
time to take a break from all the rush.
friday my relatives came over and we indulged ourselves in some sinful pleasures.
dont get the wrong idea.
and yesterday, my mom, sis and i did some..
reshifting of furnitures.
without the help of my dad! wakaka.
now there's one big space in our living room.
wonder what we're going to fill it up with.
and todayy. there was teens aLIVE.
and then there was some talk thing.
i mean what
was that.
my cuz and i
cabot after a few minutes.
and if it was not for that, we wouldve been sitting there with some old people till 4o'clock.
sorry masjid people!
yeah. tmrw OC play. hopefully jovan doesnt crush my to bits or does something freaky.
i still have homework to do!
okay. thats all for now.
5:43 PM
02 February 2008
yoyoyo.
wooooo.
things have been quite..
physical lately.
haha.
well.
now its floorball season thus hockey for the cdiv is on a hiatus.
and im playing goalie!
its less stressful than hockey goalie (which im
NOT btw)
nevertheless its really scary.
imagine letting a ball in eventhough you had already touched it.
yea thats what happened against coral.
bt my school eventually won.
and i must say my team is
really supportive.
i was under much stress and (possibly mild depression:D) during the game seh.
everyone said it was obvious.
but all was well la.
anws monday i'll be gg for two hours of sch only coz i'll be leaving for match against bedoktown at 1015.
it starts arnd 12 bt i guess we need to practise first.
talking about practise, junnow i went to prps for floorball match against.. coral.. AGAIN.
haha yea. then the ppl there were quite shocked to see me ar.
what do you expect, i
HATED floorball in primary sch.
and i saw badi and dee there too.
along with some other expasirians.
ohohoh.
and on the day i had the coral match i saw amshar.
lol. he looked pretty much the same i guess.
i was a lil bit in a daze so i didnt really remember.
bt he tegur-ed me first so yea.
well thats all for now i guess.
everything else.
im not quite sure bt i think keeping it this way feels the same like last time.
but yea whatever.
i have lots of tests next week.
yeah. even with the three day holiday (sortof).
im still gg to be cracking my brains.
oh and one last thing.
juno is apparently my favourite movie for now.
i know its nc16 or what not i still watched it so who cares.
its a nice movie to watch imo.
def check it out!
10:51 PM
