15 January 2008
huhhh.
life sucks. almost always.
but i guess constantly looking at it that way is unhealthy.
and it gets tiring.
so sometimes when its too much.
we should look for things that comfort us.
tho im not saying that everything should be forgotten.
its just that the brighter things in life can sometimes do everyone some good.
and also.
have some time to think.
hah. speak of the devil. my neighbours are fighting.
8:14 PM
13 January 2008
tsk tsk tsk.
girl.
i can see that yout dont get it.
and dont mind me but i dont think you'll ever get it.
for the benefit of the doubt.
it never was only about that
ordinary day of yours.
that day was just the tip off.
and
how dare you make it seem like im in the wrong.
ive been reasonable the best i could.
but what ive always been is
PATIENT.
patient with what?
go figure that out yourself.
i bet you'll never know why.
oh. and if you want to talk about
them.
and how i never accept your apology.
well they never were as close to me so i dont give a heck what they do.
and ive
tried.
but when it comes to you.
its just utterly
different.
but youve never seen that, have you?
cause you were too caught up with everyone else.
(and for that matter, it doesnt hurt to ASK. previously saying YES doesnt mean its the only word i know.)and tell me.
how can i lose something.
when ive felt like its been lost for
a very long time?
i have every right to be mad.
so how dare you.
how dare you turn the tables on me.
3:53 PM
07 January 2008
it barely hurt the second time round i thought of it.
coz i guess ive felt too much of it before.
so much that no song can describe what i feel.
you know, im confused.
there's so many questions i have but i dont want to see anybodys fucking face.
i dont want to care about whats been said.
coz if it lingers till this friday, god knows what'll happen.
oh ironically, school's been fun.
just thought you should know how disappointing that is.
9:55 PM
06 January 2008
funny how the year started off great.
funny how your whole world can come tumbling down in a blink of an eye.
funny how the past really isnt the present.
funny how wrong you can think of somebody.
funny how the word no lasts forever.
funny how i find it funny when all i did in the toilet was feel sorry for myself.
funny how nothing's been said.
funny how i didnt see it coming.
funny how much i say, it'll never be enough.
you know me, i don't do well with words.
wait, you do know me, don't you?
figures.
i want to leave.
cause if i poked myself for every time i lost my dignity, i think i would've been dead by now.
wouldn't that be convinient for you?
who am i kidding, it's always been convenient for you.
no matter how much sadness you try to portray with your words.
youve never suffered as much as me.
enough about me.
tell me more about yourself.
im dying to know.
7:38 PM
04 January 2008
yes it's the new year.
and it's 2008 already.
ironically things are going kind of good at school.
but i guess something-
wait i mean SOMEONE
has to ruin it.
i don't want to describe how i f*cking feel about you.
coz honestly. i don't think i know you anymore.
haha. and i start to almost sound like you.
of all people. and not even one person in school
has pissed me more then you did.
gosh. maybe i misinterpreted.
but what the heck.
you never seem to make it clear anyway.
go on. keep on hiding.
see if i care.
coz i stopped searching the moment news5 tonight started.
i can still humour myself.
that says alot.
so.
get lost damnit.
9:29 PM
