26 July 2007
hmm.
tomorrowIhaveHISTORYtest.
and.
it'sABOUTsingaporeIguess.
andI'MsupposedTOhaveGOODcontextualKNOWLEDGEonSINGAPORE.
hmm.
doesn'tSOUNDlikeTHERE'SanySTUDYINGtoDO.
right?
well.
iTHINKiSHOULDread.
andKNOWmoreABOUTsingapore'sFEATURES.
yepp.
ouh.
somethingBADjustHAPPENED.
andIwon'tSAYitHEREbecauseMOSTprobablyIwillLIEaboutITtoSOMEofYOUguys.
don'tWORRY.
i'llMOSTprobablyTELL2PEOPLEtheTRUTH.
andIjustTOLDonePERSONsoHUSHHUSH.
onAheavierNOTE.
malayCCT.
wasUNSIGNIFICANTLY.
difficult?
nevertheless.
iAMgreatly.
APPALLED.
byTHEfactTHATsomePEOPLEthoughtITwasEASY.
isn'tTHATnice?
itMAKESmeFEELmoreINFERIOR.
god.
andYOUknowSOMETHINGelse?
myWEEKENDisGOINGtoBEpacked.
byWHAT?
letMEsee.
hmm.
saturday.
PRACTICALLY THE WHOLE FREAKING DAY AT SCHOOL COZ OF MALAY CIP THING.
(do take note that for now, i think that it's a waste of time and that maybe after saturday i mgiht feel differently)
sunday.
TRAINING. ON SUNDAY??! WHAT THE HECK IS THAT ALL ABOUT?!
(unlike others, i DO have a life [oh and HOMEWORK, LOTS OF IT])
ahhhh!
soundsSOtiringSEHH.
betterBEworthITarh.
...
...
...
historyTESTtomorrow.
saveMYSELFtheEMBARRASSMENT.
(justLIKEhowCHONGembarrasedME.)
...
...
...
aufWIEDERSEIN.
all you ungrateful stupid idiots.
seriously. don't act DUMB.
you don't have to anyway.
coz you're already so damn DUMB AND PATHETIC.
grow up la. sikit2 nak marah.
sikit2 nak terpekik.
i don't need all of that okay.
i'm already in a bad condition as it is.
10:43 PM
23 July 2007
that is SO wrong.
totally WRONG.
indespicable.
p.s. this post is in relation to many things.
so if anyone terasa pon terasa la.
11:20 PM
18 July 2007
WIRgutenNACHT.
iJUSTsaidGOODnightALLofYOUinGERM.
germ'sKINDAinteresting.
youKNOWwhatI'VEbeenTHINKING.
iTHOUGHTthatMAYBEiSHOULDmakeTHISpostAmeaningfulONE.
probablyMEANINGFULtoMEonly.
andNOTtoYOU.
butHOPEyouUNDERSTAND,yeah?
well.
let'sSEE.
i'veGONEthrough
A L O T thePASThalfAyear.
andALLthatIcanREMEMBERareKINDAtheBADthings.
butYEAH.
iDOrealizeTHEREwereSOMEpositiveTHINGSthatHAPPENEDhereANDthere.
andI'VEbeenKINDA...
e m o ..?
ifYOU'DlikeTOputITthatWAY.
andDOyouWANTtoKNOWwhy?
becauseIdon'tLIKEaLOTofTHINGS.
aLOTofTHINGSthatHAPPENEDorIhadTOdo.
andiDON'TlikeAlotOFpeople.
it'sREALLYnatural, ACTUALLY.
cozTHEpeopleIdon'tLIKEare
NATURALLY unlikeable,
ACTUALLY.
uhuh.
wonderWHYiWASN'TlikeTHISlastYEAR.
cozTHEpeopleWEREN'TthatUNLIKEABLE.
andHONESTLY.
cozTHEREwereGIRLStoBALANCEitOUT.
whyDOiSAYthat?
becauseAlotOFbuysAREjustTOOdumb.
stupid.
immature.
blind.
orJUSTplain
S T U P I D.
that'sWHATi'veCOMEupWITHafterGOINGthroughMONTHSwithSUCHpeople.
allTHESEhaveAFFECTEDmeMANYwaysTHANiTHOUGHTpossible.
emotionally.
mentally
(i'mNOTcrazyOK...)(notPHYSICALLYtho)
and...
academically.
yeah.
youDON'ThaveTOcompareMYresultsTOsomeoneELSE'Sone.
justCOMPAREtoMINElastYEAR.
youCANseeONEbigPIECEofBRAINthatISmissing.
it'sSObig,YOUcanPUToneWHOLEfistINTOit.
yup.
that'sONEofMYmajorPROBLEMS.
i'mSTILLtryingTHOUGH.
iCAN'TgiveUP,right?
okTHEN.
putTHATaside.
andYOUgetPROBLEMSwithRELATIONSHIPS.
yeah.
almostALLofTHEMareCOMPLICATED.
andLIKEiSAID.
it'sBECAUSEiNATURALLYdislikeDUMBpeople.
(whenImeanDUMB,iDON'TmeanACADEMICALLY)
iDON'TreallyWANTtoTALKaboutTHIScozALLofTHEMareSOfullOFcrap.
yes.
crap.
crap.
andMOREcrap.iMEAN,seriosuly.
canYOUguysGETanymoreTYPICALandSTUPIDER?
itDISGUSTSme.
u t t e r l y.
soWHATEVERla.
hahah.
it'sFUNNY.
cozI'MhavingDOUBTSaboutPOSTINGthisENTRY.
cozHONESTLY,it'sNOTanANGSTYone.
inFACT.
i'mKINDAhappyRIGHTnow.
(despiteTHATfactIhaveTOwriteAformalLETTERafterTHIS)
IwannaSAYsomethingFIRST,beforeMOVINGoNTOtheNORMALstuffs.
i don't know what you mean and by saying this i don't mean it literally.that's why i keep my distance.so don't go blaming me for disliking you or whatsoever.coz sometimes it might seem unreasonable.tell you what, it never was unreasonable disliking.you're just too blind to see the reason.so that's why.the next time it happens.think.
ratherCONFUSING,huh?
wellYEAH.
that'sHOWiAM.
soANYWAYS.
tomorrowTHERE'LLbeRACIALharmonyCELEBRATION.
aCAUSEforCELEBRATION?
well DUH.
hahah.
goREADsya'sBLOG.
she'sPROMOTINGracialHARMONY.
so.
yeahh.
hahah.
offTOdoTHEformalLETTERwriting.
aufWIEDERSEIN!
9:06 PM
16 July 2007
helloPEOPLE.
here'SOMElyricsTOtheSONGSthatI'VEbeenHOOKEDwith.
enjoy.
*btwIT'SnotFORdumbassesWHO'SlivesAREN'TsoMESSEDup.
soYOUdumbassesCANgoAWAYnow...
bubbye!!!
Let It Die
We had fire in our eyes
In the beginning I
Never felt so alive
In the beginning you
You blame me but
It's not fair when you say that I didn't try
I just don't want to hear it anymore
I swear I never meant to let it die
I just don't care about you anymore
It's not fair when you say that I didn't try
I just don't care about you anymore
We had time on our side
In the beginning we
We had nothing to hide
In the beginning you
You blame me but
It's not fair when you say that I didn't try
I just don't want to hear it anymore
I swear I never meant to let it die
I just don't care about you anymore
It's not fair when you say that I didn't try
I just don't care about you anymore
You say that I didn't try
You say that I didn't try
You say that I didn't try
I swear I never meant to let it die
I just don't care about you anymore
It's not fair when you say that I didn't try
I just don't care about you anymore
I just don't care about you anymore
I just don't care about you anymore
I just don't care about you anymore
I just don't care about you anymore
(I Hate) Everything About You
Every time we lie awake
After every hit we take
Every feeling that I get
But I haven't missed you yet
Every roommate kept awake by
Every sigh and scream we make
All the feelings that I get
But I still don't miss you yet
Only when I start to think about it...
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
Every time we lie awake
After every hit we take
Every feeling that I get
But I haven't missed you yet
Only when I stop to think about it...
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
Only when I start to think about you I know
Only when you start to think about me do you know
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
You hate everything about me
Why do you love me
I hate
You hate
I hate
You love me
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
Pain
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
You're sick of feeling numb
You're not the only one
I'll take you by the hand
And I'll show you a world that you can understand
This life is filled with hurt
When happiness doesn't work
Trust me and take my hand
When the lights go out you will understand
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Anger and agony
Are better than misery
Trust me I've got a plan
When the lights go up you will understand
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing
Rather feel pain
I know (I know I know I know I know)
That you're wounded
You know (You know you know you know you know)
That I'm here to save you
You know (You know you know you know you know)
I'm always here for you
I know (I know I know I know I know)
That you'll thank me later
Pain, without love
Pain, can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Rather feel pain than nothing at all
Rather feel pain
well.
asYOUcanSEE.
theSONGSareFULLofREPETITIONofVERSES.
butTHAT'SoneOFtheTHINGSthatMAEKthemNICE.
butWHAT'SmoreMEANINGFULisWHATiCANrelateTOinTHESEsongs.
checkOUTtheEMPHASIZEDparts...
butFORnow.
farewell!
8:49 PM
14 July 2007
hi.
i'veNOTpostedSINCE6JULY?
yehh.
andASusual.
lotsOFthingsHAPPENED.
oneOFthoseWASwhen
WEwatchedHARRYpotterANDtheORDERofTHEphoenix.
uhuh.
theMOVIEwasGREAT.
theTHEMEwasRATHERdarkTHO.
butITwasWORTHtheSKIPofGERM.
lol.
shh.
ohWHILEwaitingFORtheMOVIEtoSTARTkan.
weWENTtoTOYS'R'US.
ANDapparentlySOMEBODYknewHERwayAROUNDit.
thenWHENgoingHOMEkan.
iSAWmySIS.
yehh.
andTHENiSAWyasmeen.
thenWEtalked.
dahLAMERtakCAKAPdenganDIERkan.
hmmm.
boringARH.
nothingMUCHtoTALKabout.
schoolSUCKSasUSUAL.
iTHINKatLEAST3TEACHERSdon'tLIKEme.
andNIA,iTHINKyourMDMyatiISoneOFthem.
sheesh.
argh.
nothingELSEtoSAYsoBYE.
1:27 PM
06 July 2007
helloPEOPLE.
i'mSLEEPYnow.
yetI'MstillBLOGGING.
ratherPRACTICALwhenYOUthinkABOUTit.
forTHEfirstTIMEiFINISHEDreBEFORE12.30am!
anACHIVEMENTworthBEINGproudOF.
i'dBEableTOsleepRIGHTnowBUTiSTILLhaveTOdoINSTRUCTIONS.
forTHEstupidMALAYgame.
hiashh.
hmm.
oh.
iASKEDmrSHAROMifITwasPOSSIBLEifIwasn'tTHEgoalkeeper.
andHEsaidYEAH!!!
woot!!!
i'mHAPPY!
iTHINK.
anyways.
besokTAK
adeCCA.
soIcanGOhomeEARLY.
wootAGAIN.
anyhows.
iHAVEtoGETbackTOwork.
soTATAS.
ohWAIT.
i'dLIKEtoMAKEaSTATEMENT.
12:20 AM
