12 April 2007
um.
hi?
heh.
suddenlyMYmoodNOWADAYSchanged.
aderLAthoseCERTAINreasons.
butTHISfeelingISN'Thealthy.
iSHOULDgetOVEReverythingTHEN.
sinceEVERYTHING'SaffectingMYlife.
andWHATi'mTRYtoREACHdoesntEVENrealizeIT.
andPEOPLEkeepGIVINGmeMIXEDfeelings.
kindaCONFUSING.
iDUNNOEifI'MbeingUSED.
hmm.
ironicIShowIshallPUTit.
cozIalwaysTHOUGHTiWOULDkeepMYSELFsafeFROMtheHORRORSofOPTHERS.
butNOWthey'reLIKEdominatingME.
andI'MbringingALLofITtoMYSELF.
iHAVEaSHORTtemper.
andONLYnowTHATiREALIZEthatIT'SnotGOOD.
soI'VEbeenTRYINGtoHOLDbackMYanger.
andTRYtoAVOIDwhateverITisAVOIDABLE.
andTHEN.
iALSOfeelTHATsomebody'sSTEALINGsomethingFROMme.
notLITERALLY.
butWHATtheHECK.
iDON'TevenTHINKthatTHATthingCARESofMYexistance.
i'mMERELYaSOMEBODYhelpful.
hah.
funny.
no,SERIOUSLY.
butYEAH.
whateverLA.
andIagreeWITHyouSYA.
SCREW THE WORLD.
=D
okLA.
enoughOFallTHEemo-icSTUFF.
tonmorrowHAVEhockeyTRAINING.
from8AMto11AM.
then1hourLATERhaveTOgoFORsomeMCCstuff.
thenGOsembahyangJUMAAT.
thenI'LLbeANushererFORaDAY.
(usherORusherer??)
theGObedokCORNERorSOMETHINGtoCELEBRATEcikTIMAH'Sbirthday.
yeah.
ohANDjunnowTHEgermTESTwasKINDAok-okBUTiHAVEanOMINOUSfeelingI'MgonnaDOsuperBAD.
sad,HUH?
yeah.
theCLASSROOMlooksUM.
different.
yarh.
heheh.
whatever.
soYEAH.
that'sALL.
kindaBORING,right?
wellGUESSwhat.
it'llGETworse.
8:48 PM
