08 March 2007
o.
m.
g.
feelsSO.
strange.
it'sLIKEiTOTALLYputMYblogASIDEforAdamnLONGtime.
whichISture.
anyways.
allMYdearFRIENDSofPRPS.
iLOVEyou!
heh.
well.
atLEASTmuchBETTERthanRI.
noOFFENCEarhRIguys.
iJUSTmissPRIMARYschoolSOf***ingMUCHthatI'MhatingRI.
well.
notREALLYhate.
butRIgivesMEtheCHILLS.
iCAN'TreallyRELATEtoTHEteachers.
iTHINK.
no,NO.
whatImeanIS.
iCAN'TreallyTALKfreelyTOmyTEACHERSbecauseI'MnotREALLYcloseTOthem.
unlikeMYprimarySCHOOL.
soEASYtoTALKtoTHEteachers.
noMATTERhowFIERCEtheyWERE.
that'sONEofTHEbigDIFFERENCE.
talkingABUTdifference.
ther'sAhuge.
significant.
distinct.
differenceBETWEENprps,ohTHATsoundsGOOD,andRI.
iWOULDN'TbothertoELABORATE.
butTOsummarizeWHATi'veBEENfeeling,FEELandWILLstillFEELisTHATiMISSmyFRIENDS,myTEACHERS,thisINDESCRIBABLEfeelingOFsafetyANDfreedomANDtheFREAKINGpreciousSixYEARSofMYlife.
urgh.
theGUYShere,ANDi'mNOTsureIFi'mSUPPOSEDtoSAYthis,ARE.
are.
uh.
weirdATtimes.
notALLofTHEM.
andBYthemImeanMYclass.
andIadmit.
i'veCHANGED.
butNOTdrastically.
i'mSTILLasGAY.
orSISSY,puttingITinAsofterTONE.
bullshit.
haha.
seriously.
i'veLIVED4MEMORABLEyearsTOgrowANDrealizeTHATliesAREeverywhere.
andIdon'tTHINKyouCOULDuseANYotherWORDorPHRASEtoDESCRIBEme.
lyingTOmeWON'TdoYOUanyGOOD.
iCANtellAliarWHENiSEEoneCOZi'mAliarTOO.
i'mNOTgettingANGRYatTHEpeopleREADIGNthisBUTthey'reJUSTmyTHOUGHTS.
andTHERE'SnoREASONiSHOULDgetALLangryOVERTHIS.
justLIKEiLEARNTinPHILOSOPHY.
itHASnoRELAVANCE(howeverYOuspellIT)toWHATi'mSAYING.
ahh.
basicallyIjustWANTtoSAYiMISSprimarySCHOOL.
allTHEmemoriesIcanREMEMBER.
urgh.
6aPEOPLE.
watchTHEclassVIDEOagainAFTEReadingTHIS!
missingYOUguysANDforeverWILL.
Amirul.
9:36 PM
